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Sunday, February 18, 2007
8:49 PM
happi chin new year to all my beloved friens out dere =)
may this new year b a better one
I LOVE MY COUSINS. they are so cute. and fun. yesterdae at ah ma hse , these 2 little cousins of mine were like talkin abt GIRLFRIENS. they are onli 5 and 6 yrs old onli and they claimed that they alreadi have girlfriens !!!! wow. n they keep tellin me tt their daddies have girlfriens outside too =x haha wad e. i didnt noe how to react when they told me tt. aniwae i have new names le. my cousins call me either macaroni jie jie or nugget ji jie. lols wadever. as long as they happy can le =)
i feel he doesnt lovE me as much as he used to before le.
or in fact shd i sae tt dere's a possiblity tt he didnt love me at all.
last nite i felt so awkward when he open e red packets tt he collected from visitin his gf relatives in front of me.
his gf mother gave him $102. he was like so shocked. i didnt noe how to react either.
when i left his hse dis morn , he didnt give me a hug nor a kiss. i feel so unneccessary.
i felt so empty when i reach home.
mayb becoz he's always not ard.
i cant get to see him often n even when he's back , he's always either with friens or family.
mayb tts e reason why i cant let go.
coz i haben get enuff of him.
i m a easily jealouse n over sensitive person.
mayb i shd change.
its easier to change my own character den tryin to change sumone else.
or mayb i shd just stop tryin to force tings n let nature take its course.
i just hope he will b as nice as how others treat me.
i wont expect much animore.
i just wan his <3>
